308th Reflection💬

“The worst of mine, how does the Lord help me to accept❓”
By guiding me to make changes of the worst of mine.
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12/10/2023 (Thu) 10:00-11:00 Hong Kong Academy of Performing Arts, A203室
Aural Perception Class
Teacher said, “Alright, clear you desk. The quiz is going to start.”
The quiz was done.
I dashed forward to the teacher.
I said, “Miss, I’m not alright.”
Teacher said, “What’s wrong?”
I said, “The listening quiz I’ve just had.”
Teacher said, “Which part?”
I said, “Um……”
Teacher said, “Part 1, listen to a melody and correct the wrong pitches. OK?”
I said, “No.”
Teacher said, “Part 2, listen to the harmony and tell the intervals, OK?”
I said, “No.”
Teacher said, “Part 3, listen to a melody and correct the rhythm, OK?”
I said, “No no, no.”
Teacher said, “Pitches and rhythms, which one are you better at?”
I said, “Rhythms.”
Teacher said, “So part 3 should be fine, right?”
I said, “No.”
Teacher said, “Get it. Let’s start your practice with pitches.”
I said, “My pitches are even worse than my rhythms.”
Teacher said, “Start your practice from where you do the worst.”
I said, “Get it.”
Teacher said, “Let’s fix a time. Come to my office and I’ll show you how to do.”
I said, “Great.”
……
Another me said, “Your listening is very bad, composer.”
I said, “Not very bad, but the worst out of my various music abilities.”
Another me said, “The Lord can’t take it. You’re a disgrace to Him.”
I said, “He can take it.”
Another me said, “How do you know?”
I said, “He can even forgive me for my sin, let alone my bad listening?”
Another me said, “Even if He can it, APA can’t do. You’re such a disgrace to her.”
I said, “APA can also take it at the moment.”
Another me said, “How do you know?”
I said, “I’m not asked to leave.”
Another me said, “Even though APA can take it, I can’t.”
I said, “You can’t but I can.”
Another me said, “How can you?”
I said, “I’m working on my pitch practice now, seeking changes from the worst of mine.”
Another me said, “Can one really accept his worst by seeking to make changes of it?”
I said, “Hey? Making changes of the worst of his is exactly the one that has accepted themselves as someone really bad will do, isn’t it?”