183rd Reflection💬

“The sorrow and complication in my heart, who understands❓”

If you want understanding, you are responsible for expressing yourself well enough to be understood.

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06/07/2021 (Tue) 12:30 Minibus

I took the minibus from Kwun Tong to the animal clinic in Mongkok to get the medical report of Tung Tung for the insurance claim.

When the minibus reached Kowloon City, it got straight onto the bridge that directly headed for Prince Edward.

Passenger said, “Driver, why did you get on the bridge?”

Driver said, “We’re heading straight for Prince Edward.”

Passenger said, “But I have to get off at St. Teresa Hospital.”

Driver said, “Too late. I can’t help.”

Passenger said, “How can you act this way as a driver?”

Driver said, “In which way do you want? You want us now to take a leap from the bridge, don’t you? You Idiot!”

Passenger said, “How dare you!”

Driver said, “How dare I? Where you want to get off, you have to tell me in advance. If you had told me early enough that you’d like to get off at St. Teresa Hospital, I wouldn’t have got on the bridge.”

Passenger said, “I’m the first one to get on your minibus and the first one to pay you the fare.”

Driver said, “But never have you told me you’d like to get off at St. Teresa Hospital.”

Passenger said, “Alas, you can’t behave like that.”

Driver stopped and opened the door.

Driver said, “We’ve already passed the St. Teresa Hospital. Are you going to get off here?”

Passenger got off.

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Another me said, “Alas, you guys, none of you understands my thoughts, do you?”

I said, “What thoughts to understand?”

Another me said, “Alas.”

I said, “Have you ever shared your thoughts to anyone of us?”

Another me said, “What’s the point of doing so? None of you guys will understand, anyway.”

I said, “Are you thoughts something very complicated? Are they some research questions at a doctorate level? Why on earth will not even one of us understand?”

Another me said, “Because none of you guys have had the same experience as I do.”

I said, “Alright, I’m going.”

Another me said, “Where are you going?”

I said, “For piano practices.”

Another me said, “How can you act this way as a Christian?”

I said, “In which way? If you want someone to understand you, you are responsible for voicing it out. But even if you do, I still get the choice whether to listen or not, let alone you have now voiced out nothing about it at all.”

Another me said, “You know. You guys are the first group of Christians that I met since I committed myself to Christ.”

I said, “But never have you told us what you want us to understand!”

Another me said, “Alas, you can’t behave like that.“

I turned around and left.

Another me said, “I don’t mean I don’t want to tell you guys. But even if I do, you guys won’t understand. Do you get it?”

I said, “Your thoughts are something that belongs to you. If you want others to understand, you have the responsibility to make those thoughts that are hard to understand understandable.”